“If I could fade into the light of day as shadows do by night,
What peace the in-between would be still here but out of sight.

To disappear and re-appear by choice and not by must,
Would be the saving of my soul from darkness where it’s stuck.”

– Sandra J Kelly

This is my heavy thought for today… a reflection of a shadow time that may surprise some to know was a time before cancer.

A time when I’d become so tired I literally “couldn’t see the trees for the wood”. I’m still sifting through how I arrived there now feeling the need to weave my way through the words gathering the kindling of thoughts that remain scattered beneath the canopy of their misleading shelter.

The darkness still calls me; the detachment alluring. I think it always will. Taunting me deceptively to succumb to the ‘in-between’. It is but a chameleon masquerading as a desired state of peace. I know now there is no peace to be found there, only the emptiness of emotionless voids that encapsulated me into a false sense of mind numbing euphoria.

Taunt as it may I wish not to stay. The kindling I gather there ignites fires of clarity casting the glow of my precious life like a beacon of which I choose to return. A life not without fear or stalking shadows but an emerging life; one of learning to dance in the rain again as each brewing storm hovers, dumps it’s fury and rolls by.

What’s your thought for today?