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August 7, 2014 By Sandra 6 Comments

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“If I could fade into the light of day as shadows do by night,
What peace the in-between would be still here but out of sight.

To disappear and re-appear by choice and not by must,
Would be the saving of my soul from darkness where it’s stuck.”

– Sandra J Kelly

This is my heavy thought for today… a reflection of a shadow time that may surprise some to know was a time before cancer.

A time when I’d become so tired I literally “couldn’t see the trees for the wood”. I’m still sifting through how I arrived there now feeling the need to weave my way through the words gathering the kindling of thoughts that remain scattered beneath the canopy of their misleading shelter.

The darkness still calls me; the detachment alluring. I think it always will. Taunting me deceptively to succumb to the ‘in-between’. It is but a chameleon masquerading as a desired state of peace. I know now there is no peace to be found there, only the emptiness of emotionless voids that encapsulated me into a false sense of mind numbing euphoria.

Taunt as it may I wish not to stay. The kindling I gather there ignites fires of clarity casting the glow of my precious life like a beacon of which I choose to return. A life not without fear or stalking shadows but an emerging life; one of learning to dance in the rain again as each brewing storm hovers, dumps it’s fury and rolls by.

What’s your thought for today?

Comments

  1. [email protected]fo says

    August 8, 2014 at 9:09 pm

    What beautiful words….
    I love jumping in puddles,

    And dancing in the rain…
    Just….. beautiful writing… live with love x
    Thank you for such lovely words

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    • Sandra says

      August 8, 2014 at 10:23 pm

      Oh thank you for your lovely comments! I’m truly touched. x

      Reply
  2. Sonia Life Love Hiccups says

    August 9, 2014 at 4:38 pm

    So beautiful hun and so hauntingly familiar is the feeling I get reading your words. xx

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    • Sandra says

      August 11, 2014 at 11:55 am

      “Haunting” good description Sonia. Thank you x

      Reply
  3. Lucy @ Bake Play Smile says

    August 10, 2014 at 7:47 pm

    Wow what beautiful writing – you certainly have a way with words. xxx

    Reply
    • Sandra says

      August 11, 2014 at 11:55 am

      Thanks for your kind comments Lucy! Just me being honest. Thank you x

      Reply

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